I am nothing to you and you are nothing to me.
I don’t even hate you anymore. I have no emotions for you anymore.
E V E R Y T H I N G I S D E A D.
I faintly remember trying to flirt online. “… you fine azz hell” I said. I think she said thanks. I think… Regardless, I went on and asked her if her brother would mind me saying that, she said no. I rarely saw this girl in person, but I think you take everything as a hint in 8th grade. I hadn’t even noticed she said “but I know someone who would” before I started jumping off the walls. I calmed myself down, acted cool, as if she could see me through the screen. I asked, “who?” and waited.
*Shattered Glass Noise*
From that moment on, I knew me and her would have a beautiful friendship.
I’ve been trying to improve my handwriting so I could finish.
I want it to look good. I want it to mean something to you.
I hung out with my old team today. New faces, new memories being made. It’s hard to believe some of them missed me… I lack the capacity to miss people to great extents. I’m only close enough to some people. I’m furthering myself from most.
It’s just awkward. Being told that I’ve been missed.
But it’s gratifying knowing that I impacted peoples lives. I checked on my old teammates, and many of them listened to me. They actually took my advice on things. My words actually meant something to them..
And coach told all the freshmen to shake my hand because that’s part of the shared knowledge our team has had.
Being an alumnus means so much more when you know you impacted people. I guess my fighter spirit as a captain did pay off, because I see myself in so many of them now.
I love it. Love is such a simple word for it but I love it. I love being part of that family.
For the future, I’d like to make a new community. UIUC has been cold to me, but so was DDE when I first started.
People who use a lack of education to justify subjecting poor people to poverty are fucking revolting. They’ve invented a system wherein poor people cannot obtain a quality education because they are poor and then they use that lack of education to justify their continued poverty. It’s self-sustaining, vile, oppressive, and a fundamental tenet of modern American conservativism.
Do you ever think about the fact that the US has created and legitimized a system of institutionalized inequality by funding schools through property taxes? That basically a child’s education is only as good as the value of the property in their neighborhood. Funny how education is so often viewed as an equalizing factor when there is nothing equal about it.
You gave me the purpose
The interchanging mechanism.
Sour for my stomachache.
But I’ve matured. And hard candy is all I can swallow now.
is a good poem.
letters, letters, let us,
be free from construction
and cement, and all that is solid.
i want to be free but I doubt it,
the world, the influence would never allow it,
"live life and end it with a period",
life lives to force it down our throats.
i wrote you a letter, as if i forgot it
a letter using letters that let her
D E S T R O Y.